What comes to mind were those things I did in 1999. I never thought that what I did then had a major impact in my life now.
I was acting on impulse then. After that my life was never the same again.
However when I look back, everything is a blessing.
I sure like to know what actually happened behind the scene from your point of view.
Where was the trigger point? If you said you had been tailing me since 2005, that was before social media becomes pervasive.
All I know then was I made a lot of research on the hypocrisy of Islam. I also contacted an apostate by the name of Murtad Mama and gave her moral support.
I guess my interest was not about becoming a better Muslim. I am more keen to uncover the real truth about Islam. I was looking for reasons to debunk the religion.
The ironic was in 1999 I was pledging war (an invisible war that is) by using the Quran as my weapon against the unseen enemy.
I guess I am always a soldier at heart, a Samurai. I long to die a martyr death. I was in contact with Jemaah Islamiah, a splinter group of Al Qaeda to fight in Mindanao and Ambon. The recruiters were my accountants. At that time they are known as Freedom Fighters, not terrorists.
Mopey wa[y] conceived during this era; when I was a Wandering Sufi. It was a magical journey for me, almost a personal crusade.
Now when I think about it, I feel stupid. I had it all. SJ&A was at it height of success. I made a comfortable living.
I was seduced by religion because I thought I was on the right path.
The lesson there is religion was created by men to serve the few to manipulate the many.
It is such a dirty word for me now. It is because of organized religions that we are mentally shackled.
I would have chosen atheism if not because I don't stop searching for the answer. Well, now I am totally satisfied with the answer that I uncovered:
We are One and we are Many. We are within God and God is within us. It's like peeling an onion. A[s] every layer there is God. All matters are intelligent and all matters are gods.
If there is an intervening God, then I say my life so far is guided by this invisible hand. All the experiences were meant for me to realize that I am the Almighty God of my 12 meters square. That is good enough for me, a person who all this while thought he had gone cuckoo.
Brb...
Well there is a fringe benefit too. I found True Love. Isn't that nice?
Now, I am not sure if I am THE GOD but I am very certain I created the Adjoining Croissant Universe.
"You are THE GOD Sha," came the answer from God, who as we established earlier is me from the future.
So tonight you bear witness that I am THE GOD. What difference with that make? Well certainly everything that I told you is true. More so than ever, I have a glorious afterlife.
As for the current state, as I said before, I am already complete. You completed me Sarah.
I don't care what others think of me. I don't owe them a living. Hence I now accept that everything that I did was within my provision as God. Including the anal sex and the encounters with the trannies.
Everything that I did and do in that sense is godly.
The Devil may tempted me but I acted within my capacity as God.
I am who God is and ALL those things that I do are the things that God does.
My point is this... God is only human and to be God is a man fully functioning.
Does it make sense to you?
Even as God, I paid dearly for my sins which was stealing. As a payback I lost all my money. Those drinking, smoking pot and fucking are not sins in my book because I didn't do any harm to anybody while committing all that.
Note: Although we are talking about me as a God here, the discussion is from the perspective of me being a Recovered Mental Patient. Not from the God Complex
I gotta go baby.
Line is still down. So no lullaby.
From now on for the final time I accept that I am THE GOD.
Goodnight baby...
-----------------------------------
No comments:
Post a Comment