For example, reality is driving from point A to point B. However a dream is sitting on the comfort of a leather seat, in the cool air conditioner and listening to the music. All are unnecessary to get from point A to point B but it certainly makes the journey more pleasant.
I am on my way to meet death. There maybe nothing beyond that. However I can still use of my imagination to make my journey pleasant.
Since I am entitled to my own happiness, I might as well maximize my ability to imagine nice thoughts.
I no longer have a need for others to believe in my imaginations. They are purely for my self-indulgence
In short I am entitled to my whatever I want to believe including that I am God to my 12 meters square.
Yes, I am my own god. I don't care if there is A God out there. In my realm, I am THE God.
Therefore I complete this anthropological axiom:
First there was man;
Then man creates God;
Then God creates man;
Then man becomes God.
Why should I deny my ability to imagine? I own that. That is my rights.
My body may be in prison but my mind is free. My mistake in the past was trying to have others subscribe to my belief. It doesn't have to be that way. Just like Sharudinism, I can be the only one who subscribe to my own thoughts.
It way be crazy but I don't bother anybody and nobody bothers me.
I should not be subtracting my resources especially if it doesn't cost anything.
So I may be an agnostic atheist but that should not limit my mind to imagine a glorious afterlife. The ability to imagine is my rights as a human being.
It's like I don't fancy Marvel Comic Heroes but that doesn't stop me from enjoying the Marvel Movies.
Same thing with the religious festival. I can still enjoy them even though I don't believe in religions.
Having the vision of the afterlife doesn't make me a lesser agnostic atheist. I am just being practical about the resources that I have. In the end there is no truth beyond mathematics.
So I'm not going to think about true or false anymore but rather what is useful or not.
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There is one ultimate truth though; that we all gong to die. Hence instead of holding back on our lives, we should think of ways we should live.
I am now living the dream life. Everyday is a permanent vacation. Who doesn't want that? It's like while the masses are struggling to make their ends meet, I am enjoying a comfortable life on a little island in paradise.
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All I got to manage are food and fucking.
Food is no sugar and starch. Fucking is to just revert back to Pornhub.
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In the past I was delusional. It was so bad that I even had delusions about Iron Maiden songs are about me. Now I am past that.
Then I ramble like a mad man with TraXX. The more reason I should not contact TraXX anymore.
What was all that really? I wanted to be accepted but in the end I scare everybody away.
For sure I should not smoke pot.
I have to accept the fact that I am a mental patient. Since I am a mental patience, I have to accept that my reality is only applicable to me.
Back to the basics; should I fuck? Well I wanted to quit 3 Cs this year. I should stick to the decision. Fucking is the most costly utility over per minute ratio. In another word it is the most costly pleasure spend over a duration of time.
I am better off spending my money on clothes and perfume.
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I should cut sugar and starch. Also I should lose weight.
That is a worthy cause.
I should follow this model:
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Let's have a normal life. If I manage my weight and keep physically active, food and fuck are never gonna be an issue.
Don't waste money. No money is despairing. The goal is to spend as less as possible. I had managed to stay away from cigarette and cannabis. I am sure I can stay away from cunts.
I got to stay on course. No 3 Cs and no sugar and starch.
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