15/8/19 ***No more inflammation

I dreamed I was a consultant again.  In the first part I was a consultant to MSCTC.  I was going out for lunch with a few of them.  Then I dreamed I was an independent consultant and I talked about the Customer Service Mentality to my prospect.

I guess based on the dreams I had about being a consultant, I might as well accept that I am a retired consultant and I am pretty good at it.

I feel pretty good mentally as we speak.

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Meanwhile Malaysian politics is going down the gutter with racial slurs.  So much for unity in diversity. 

Chedet is being an ass.

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In the meantime I am setting my course in being a person living my life in the now.  The best model is to maintain being a Hedonist Hermit.  No more thinking of the afterlife.

What I should be focusing on is like suggested by Al Araf 7:7.   No afterlife.

So if the present is cash, then I should spend my cash now.

Rightfully I should spend my cash on what matters; my health and happiness.

There is only 2 major delights that I have; food and fuck.

The fastest way to become poor is to spend on pussy.

So no pussy.  Maybe I just do it once or twice a year.

There is the issue of buying supplements too.

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What I should be thinking is to save as much as possible so that I can use the interest to spend..  My target is to save RM20 k so that I can earn RM1 k a year.

Nowadays I cannot eat whatever I like.  No red meat, no 3-in-1 coffee, no lamb.  So I just constrained to basic stuff; eggs, veges, chicken and fish.

I think I stop Nicorette today.

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I want to lead a healthy life all over again.  I guess the biggest hurdle is the God Complex.  Without the God Complex, there is no godly issue.  Definitely no afterlife.

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Actually there is no effect to me whether I believe or don't believe in God and the afterlife.  It is a matters of belief.

So what if I believe?  What if I don't believe?  Actually none whatsoever.

Therefore instead of having a void, I am going to fill it up.  I'm going to say that there is a God and there is an afterlife.  It is useful for me to believe that because then I have the ability to dream again.

Whether the dream is real or not is not really the main issue.  I need to have the ability to dream even if the dream is not real.

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