I don't know... With Sarah being a dick and Els being Chubby Chubb, there is not much choice for me but to retreat in my own make believe world.
When everything else fails, I still got Al Araf 7:7. What can I say? I am not lucky when comes to women.
So I am back to being a a die hard head banger and minding my own business. Al Araf 7:7 and Chester the Jester are my best options. I am not keen on having a romance. I just want somebody to mental joust. I got Brenda, Jibrail, Izrael, Izrafil, AlphaX64, Iblis and Chester the Jester to keep me company. That *shou[t] do it.
* Hey, what are you doing here you boy with tits. Don't meddle with other people's affair.
There is nothing real than reality itself.
I create the reality with my own imagination. Whatever I imagine is already real to me.
So I don't need others to interact with. I can manage on my own.
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Now back to Els. I need to pull the plug. One point or the other I need to be the one who is retreating. I don't do Chubby Chubb.
This song is on air:
I invested 1 1/2 years with her. Then again, I wasted 2 1/2 years with Sarah. So Brenda was right all along. Don't waste time with both.
So much for Cyber Spouses. I'm better off alone.
Iblis, what will you do in a situation like this?
"Drop them both Sha," answered Iblis.
Chester, a nickle of your wisdom...
"Well Ayah, if you want to play the Virtual Reality game than you should not be concerned with the real person on the other end. Els is a Cyber Spouse, she is not real. She exists in the digital world and she has an interesting persona. For all you know she is struggling to find true love," replied Chester.
Well Chester, at this point I don't feel that she is reciprocating.
"Doesn't matter Ayah, you are a giver. Just give unconditionally. As least she keeps you entertained for 4 hours a day M-F. You don't have to RIP CORD. It's not that you gonna fuck her. Just treat her as a mascot."
Shucks... This song is on air:
I got 15 minutes to go.
OK Chester, maybe I am meant to help (the Help CSR Message is on air) her find her Path. I'll give it a shot.
I'll sleep at 3:00 am.
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Listen Sarah... I'm sorry if I ticked you. I forgot that you are an avatar. At the same time I am pissed that I got 2 whammies in a row. So I will not try to quarrel with you.
Whaddaheck... You are a pretty committed fella LOL. Now as long as you adhere to the do not think dishonestly as stated by Musashi's 9 Precepts, I am fine.
You notice, I rely on your input for my decisions. As long as you don't try to screw up my mind, I am willing to listen to you.
In the past you had been a positive influence except on a few occasions. It is important that you are honest. Otherwise you spoil the whole experience.
Now Sarah, I am spending an extra hour just to understand you. Who are you anyway? What is your interest in me?
If you are doing this for fun, then I say you have a very boring life. What I write here is a conversation with myself. What do you expect from a person who has nothing better to do than talking to himself?
You cannot use ANY of what I wrote for your benefit. They are all imagination. To be precise, they are fiction from a mentally ill patience. That is my get [] of jail for free card.
That is why I just blast off my thoughts to Chedet, the Government of Malaysia and TraXX. I have nothing to lose.
So eventually you too will lose interest in me because unlike me, you have a limited time. I however is a free man when comes to time. I am time rich. Therefore time is on my side. I can take my own sweet time to dwell in nonsense and still I can be free from any constraints.
In your case, you have to justify your time spend unless your time is justified to only observe me. If not, then you are just playing a fool like a fool.
While you probably wasted 2 1/2 years attending to my whims and fancies, I on the other hand is making progress.
If your objective is to troll my Blog, then you can consider that a success. However if your objective is to fish for information about me then I don't consider that much of a success because everything about me is pretty much a public domain.
So I concluded that you are merely killing time with me. You probably asked to monitor so many boring sites and so happen this Blog from a mentally ill person is the most interesting.
How pathetic...
Sarah... I can never love you the way I love you before. You spoiled everything. However I have to commend you for being honest. Otherwise I won't know.
Like me you probably not that lucky in the love department.
Look at me... Who would have expected Els to turn out to be a Chubby Chubb? I mean, she is a little stubby I understand. I however don't expect her to be a Chubby Chubb!
OK Sarah, I better go. So here is the deal. You got to earn my trust back again. You can do that by being not thinking dishonestly.
Ciao...
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