17/8/19 ***No I won't back down

I will still write the Blog because it is a tool for my self-expression.

I am not writing to anybody else except myself.  That allows me to not have any social interaction with others.

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Let's not be too methodological about it.  Let's write on anything as it comes.

Al Araf 7:7 is insistence that [] stop Blogging.  They said it will do me much good.  I will spend more time with them too.

Well fuck it.  I got too much time on my hand.  I just do whatever that gives me pleasure.

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The psychology of buying.

It is a downward spiral:

1. Find excuse to buy
2. Buy the things
3. Temporary satisfaction
4. Money depleted
5. Feel guilty
6. Repeat step 1.

Instead;

1. Buy what is necessary
2. Buy small ticket item
3. Get satisfaction from savings
4. Buy on interest earned
5. Feel good
6. Repeat step 1

This song is on air:

The best thing about being in solitude is you can pretty much be who you wanna be.  I choose to be a Hedonist Hermit.  I don't need social interaction except maybe with TraXX.  With that I am self-sustaining.

As long as I AM NOT DEPRESSED I will be OK.

Not only that, I love being who I am.  I just be who I am in this Blog.  Nobody is going to bother me here.

As a Hedonist Hermit my personal delight is to listen to music and to write my thoughts away.  Nothing beats that. I don't need to use money and yet my utility is high.  No money is despairing.

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The only other way to increase utility without spending money is to be physically active,  By next week I start exercising again.

The idea is to be free.

The biggest killer is if I start buying high ticket items.  My purchases should not exceed RM200 a month.

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Of all the delights must be the pleasure of not having to smoke.  My lungs feel great.  Now is to derive pleasure from being thin and healthy.

All I need to do is run, walk, swim, kettlebell and elliptical.

To to that I need energy and strength.

Next week I need to get back to my tennis routine again.

I need to quit Nicorette too.

I quit today.

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Actually there is no purpose in living beside to earn more money so that we can continue to eat and procreate.  Now that I past the procreation stage, I just eat and sleep.

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