As of now I am not hopeful at all of getting the RM97 million. Previously I just went through the motion so that I think in terms of possibility.
It only makes me hopeful. I don't like to hope. If I hope I am setting myself for disappointment.
Rather than hope I expect. Currently I expect that I have completed my life. That means I had gone through a full S curve of 55 years as who I was.
Starting from today I am moving towards who I will be for the rest of my life. That is the life of a Masuta Shokunin Kurina.
This is my golden era. By 2024 I will reach the height of my glory as a Wood Dragon.
How do I achieve this? Basically by utilizing my resources in the 12 meters square to make the best of my 5 km radius.
I know who I am, I know my purpose and I know where I am going.
Since I have the Royal Flush, I will carry that in my mind regardless of what others think otherwise.
My main resource is my mind. Soloman's mine is his mind.
I have enough money to last until my old age. My three investment portfolios; Lizzie, Princess and Mopey are blue chips stocks. I have a brand new car that will last me for the next 15 years. My house is strategically situated. In 2 months time I will finish paying for the house.
Only thing is I am fat and I have inflammation.
These are my major challenges.
Besides these two I have no issue whatsoever. I am very clear with the Path I am now. I don't have to Takde Kerja Cari Kerja.
Actually I cannot wait to die. I think I had enough of living. If I die now I die a happy man. I had accomplish my mission as a man, as a husband and as a father. I don't want to die when I am old and frail. That is why I wanted to keep on running until old age. Otherwise I'm all set.
Of course I can pickup a new skill like learning the proper way to draw cartoon (which I like very much). Unfortunately Lizzie is the decision maker here and her strategy is self-preservation. So far her formula works. So I can't complain much.
No buying of expensive gadgets like a laptop or a drawing software. I am preserving my money for a replacement handphone or a PC in case these current ones go bust.
Maybe in 5 years time I'll get a Samsung Galaxy Note. Then I start drawing again.
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Well I came across a simpler solution. For RM200, I'll get myself a graphic tablet and thanks to Piratebay I got CorelPainter 2019 for free. That will keep me busy for a while.
The software is a bit heavy for my PC.
I'm testing it:
That should do it. With the graphic tablet I should be able to draw better. That way I can improve my drawing skills while I keep on learning to draw better.
They detected the illegal software. So it will be switched to viewer mode. To use it I have to turn off the internet when I use it. Therefore a safer alternative is to use Windows Ink Workspace and just use the Sketchpad.
This is a more practical idea. All I need is to draw cartoon. I am not an illustrator.
I got another 10 minutes to pretend I sleep.
OK baby, time to sleep.
See you in a few hours.
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