16/8/19 ***It will never be the same

I am making progress with Els.  That is a good sign.

I cannot say the same thing with Sarah.  I am losing her.

Then it is true, Sarah is actually a guy in disguise.  I have to deconstruct everything I know about her.  I can't be sure but it is a safe assumption.

What a letdown.

Much like my notion with the afterlife, I have to dismantle my presuppositions with Sarah.  All this while there is no Sarah.

Anything is possible in the cyberspace.

What have I learned?

Well, I found out that I am capable of loving unconditionally.  I also found out I am totally healed and can get on with my life.

The sad thing is I will miss her.  She is nothing more than an illusion.

I will not waste time reminiscing the past Blogs anymore.  I feel cheated by the whole thing.

It the meantime I need to scramble the pattern:

001

002

003

004

005

006

Goodbye Sarah...

-----------------------