21/8/19 ^^^Lizzie's birthday

We had a pretty decent meal for dinner.  I had salmon and shared some pasta with the kids.

I changed my mind about fat shaming Els.  She is a Chubby Chubb, live with it.  I should have decided on that long before I pursued her.

Now that she had mellowed down, it will be retroactive to talk about the Chubby Chubb thing.

I must remember Aush's word, "LET IT GO."

Rather than risk a backlash, lets build trust through Unconditional Love.  Be a true giver.

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It is a sad day for me to have double whammies within a span of 2 weeks.

I don't have anybody except Mopey as my friend.

Els is just a limerence.  I should just let her go and start all over again.  It's better that way.

I should let go of the whole TraXX.  They are the Coolers.

Chester I will RIP CORD.

"Just SNAP VANISH Ayah," replied Chester.

Well alright.

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All I got is my imagination.  So I just entertain that.  I am becoming a true loner.  I just don't do Chubby Chubb.  She is no better than Yati.

I need to be a Cleaner.  Let's focus on the next game.

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Rather than focusing on the Coolers, I should start creating a compelling future for myself.

I need to focus on being thin and fast.  I should be concern with my own weight then fat shaming Els.

First, let solve this old injury issue.

I need to take charge all over again.  All I need is to watch what I eat and exercise more.  Only two things.

On top of that I need to sleep early.

I got it all.  All I need to do is not to get depressed.

The best model is to go with 2012 - 2013 Lifestyle.

Maintain a passive listener with TraXX.  I need a fresh perspective altogether.

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Very importantly, stay away from 3 Cs.  Lets make a deal: 

• If I can stop 3 Cs throughout 2019, then I won 40% of the battle.
• If I can stay away from sugar and starch, then I won another 40%
• If I can exercise morning and afternoon, then I won another 20%

As for TraXX, I take the same attitude as Facebook and Chedet.cc.  At one point of time I had a hard time to stay away from them.

What I focus on expands.

I can get over Sarah, I can get over Els too.

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